It’s a funny thing about poison, you only need very little of it to kill you. Once you ingest it, once it’s in you, in your blood stream, it’s very hard to rid yourself of it’s affects. Sometimes you have to let it run it’s course.

The only thing is, you don’t know if it’ll make you sick or if it’ll kill you.

I feel like I’m being poisoned here. All the hard work I’ve done on myself the last four years seems like it’s being erased in favor of the tools of survival I adopted a long time ago. And…

yep. I just lost it.

So much for posting.