For the last few months I’ve been feeling like a scream has been building in the back of my throat. It’s like a pressure mounting on my vocal cords. Everyday I’m choking it back. I feel like I just wanna scream at the top of my lungs.
I’m so damn IRRITABLE, you know? It’s just like, so much SHIT going on and I’m just angry so much. Things that didn’t used to bother me drive me absofuckinlutely outside of my mind. I feel like I’m losing it. My ability to cope has whittled down to nearly zero. I’m not just rolling with the punches, going with the flow anymore. I feel tightly wound, each offense turning me a little tighter, small strings starting to unravel and curl.
I wanna just fall out in the floor and kick and scream and cry like a child. I need an old fashioned temper tantrum.
I have far too much pride to do that of course.
But I’m choking on it. It’s strangling me.
Everything is shit right now.