So a few readers (Jam, Stace, X) have been reading for quite some time through all the foolishness and mayhem that has been these almost 400 posts. You’ve been here through this which led to this and then that. (And no kiddies your eyes are not deceiving you, those are in fact two distinctly different dates. Messy is what I am.) You’ve stuck around for rebounds, for this painful shit (read all 7 parts if you want to shake your head at me), then this facade of happy which inevitably led to this. (really this whole month of crazy) You’ve read all about this foray into foolishness and all the issues therein.
So what you should conclude, if you haven’t already concluded, or you are a moron that doesn’t see the forest for the trees after reading the links, is that I am notsomuch with the relationships. I’m not particularly good at them. (And by ‘not particularly good’ I mean BWAHAHAHAHAHA!) I am not one of those people for whom relationships come easy. I have to work sincerely hard at them. Like, HARD. Not like just regular hard. I’m talking straight up boot camp style work. I certainly wish that wasn’t the case, but apparently you can’t have nice tits AND be Relationship Girl.
Talking to my co-worker today she said something that struck me. She was talking about the issues that she has been having with her boyfriend and she said to me, “I am not sure that I am the relationship type. I don’t know if I am all that comfortable with the idea of being had.”
I thought it was interesting. I don’t think I have a particular problem with “being had” but I am not all that certain that I am a “relationship type”. Is there a “type” that fits best in a relationship?
I hate checking in. I’m not big on being emotionally available or “talking”. I’m not particularly fond of being responsible for other people
because I usually fuck it up nor am I all that gung ho about the growing pains that come along with people getting to the point where they “get me” because they usually fuck it up. I am fairly free spirited and slave to my whims which, while they don’t ever include cheating, sometimes don’t sit to well with the significant others. (Getting fucked up in VIP anyone?) I like being alone. I like my space. I desire a career that quite possibly won’t leave me very little time to invest in someone other than my goals. I am particular. I resent feeling like I am being controlled or reprimanded or talked down to. I like keeping my own schedule. Do all these things sounds like the makings of a happy relationship? Probably notsomuch.
So I pose these questions. Is there a “type” of person who fits in a relationship? And we aren’t considering cheaters or liars or people who are commitment-phobic. We’re talking straight up personality traits that lend themselves to serial monogamy. And furthermore, are you one of those types? What have you had to change for love?
And why isn’t there a class or something that serves Grey Goose and figures out this shit for me?