I never let myself think about you. On the occasions when you do pop into my mind, I busy myself with other things. Things get cleaned and organized, I IM random people at random times, I play with the dog. This issue is that these thoughts aren't occasional for me. Anymore. They used to be, … Continue reading 3:39am
Don’t get involved with long term friends. La did that so you ain’t gotta go through that.
"Loving you is my Biggest Weakness"
Someone said this to me a year ago. And it broke my heart. He later went on to clean it up nicely and spin it into a real deep convo about the dynamics between male and female relationships, but that inital way I heard it, that 1st way I took it, the original way I … Continue reading "Loving you is my Biggest Weakness"
I miss you. It's that simple, really, where everything else is so complex. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think of you at least once. And each time I do, my stomach falls a few inches lower, the back of my mouth tastes metallic. The moment passes, coming in waves that … Continue reading Dear Friend
The Guy not Chosen
I often ponder the big decisions I've made and wonder how my life would be different. What if I'd never gone to Howard? Who would I be? Who would I know? How would my life be different? What if I didn't grow up in Atlanta? What if I grew up in, say, Cali? Would the … Continue reading The Guy not Chosen
Lies, Lies, Lies
The funny thing about lies is it creates a false sense of power, a false sense of comfort. The only truly powerful one, is the one who has the most knowledge the one that, with just a few place words, could destroy it all.I read something tonight, and it made me shake my head because … Continue reading Lies, Lies, Lies
Man vs. Man
Disrespect drives me crazy. To absolutely no end. I recognize that many of the things I find utterly disrespectful, other people simply shrug off. And that's fine. But let me tell you what isn't... Disrespecting someone you claim to love, no matter how minor. I'm one of those people that if I'm with you, I'm … Continue reading Man vs. Man
I've kept many secrets in my life. Many. Almost lived two lives in one. But I've never liked it. There were times, though, when it felt necessary. Like now. There are things I wanna say, subjects I wanna touch, ghosts that linger in the corners of my bedroom at night that I should have long … Continue reading Secrets
I thought I knew who you were I see now you were a lesson to learn And all I am to you now Is a bridge that's been burned I look back over things in my life, people I've known, and the 20/20 is priceless. I can't believe I didn't see some things that I … Continue reading 20/20
Childhood Bestie and I have deep convos via text. Here, partake. CB: Why do girls hang around a guy causally and then say they're dating? Even when he's said he doesn't wanna be in a relationship? La: Are you talking about me and The Great Houdini or do you want an unbiased answer? CB: Huh? … Continue reading Math
Here's the thing... There's a lot going on in my life right now. A LOT. Way more than I wish there was. And I can't take further complication. And I would think that the people that knew me best, understood me, knew my circumstances, would be understanding of the horrible job I'm doing of balancing … Continue reading Simplicity