“I have been wondering all week if I should send this to you or not.”Peter Parker’s voice has stampeded into the quiet with no preamble after I answered my phone on speaker without bothering to check the caller ID. Now, I am staring at the phone from a few feet away, the pic we took … Continue reading Awkward
3 weeks ago...“How is it that we both thought things would turn out the same way, and yet they didn’t?”“It’s all the way it's supposed to be. You know that, right?”“Yes. But still...”“Still.”He looks at me, his eyelids heavy with sleep and sorrow, wiggling his mouth the way he does when he is considering something. … Continue reading Stolen Moments
If the legends are true, I have a bit of fear of commitment. Or, at least I do if you ask any of the people I HAVEN’T dated. *side eye* I could offer up the contents of this blog, the last five chronicled years of loving and losing and lusting, as evidence that this isn’t exactly the case, … Continue reading Meh.
It's kinda like that scene in Definitely, Maybe.We are on opposite ends of the couch, both our laptops in our laps, our legs intertwined, him working on lesson plans and me looking at hotels in foreign countries that have alabaster beaches and cobalt water. Every once in awhile we pass our computers back and forth … Continue reading Because You Asked…
There are fresh tears on my waterproof lashes. I am doing that thing where you blink really really fast because, despite all evidence to the contrary, in the moment it seems like that actually works.It does not.But I am a black girl recently left sitting alone at a crowded bar and I DO NOT need … Continue reading My So Called Life
I am competitive by nature.Probably absurdly so.But it is a part of who I am so I have come to live with it.Barely.The thing is, I just hate to lose. We’ve covered that, haven’t we? Granted, I don’t actually know anyone who LIKES to lose, and I am certainly not saying I'm an ungraceful loser. I’m … Continue reading Quitters Don’t Buy Condoms
We have plans tonight.I go hard for a man who takes control, y'all.But I've already made plans with my bottom bitch to hang out and drink wine and talk shit.I can't. I have plans.Can you reschedule?You should have let me know sooner. But I'm not cancelling on my girl.I understand :-(However serendipitous though, inside the hour, … Continue reading You Make me So..
this is a continuation of this. Catch up first. Don't worry. I'll wait..."What's wrong?"His cheeks are flushed, broad ribbons of salmon whipping back towards his hairline. His eyes are wild, from my outburst or my bra, I'm not sure. But truthfully, I can barely even focus on that shit right now."Oh. My. GOD" I say, … Continue reading And Finding it Again (part 2)
I love Peter Parker's place because it is immaculate. And I don't mean that kinda immaculate that denotes him having something to hide. I mean that kinda clean that is lived and comfortable with just a slight bit of anal.You know, like mine.And it always smells good. Like the cologne he wears and the soap … Continue reading Losing my Head
...Apartment 204.That's how Peter Parker's text ends. Before it is a long string of directions that, despite having lived here for 3 years now, I have to admit I am woefully unfamiliar with.What is this directions to?My place.Back story...Even though I am enjoying single life and all it has to offer, not all of my friends … Continue reading Being a Big Girl